Is it me or...?
...are BASE jumpers, thrill seekers, heroin junkies, Cowboys or whatever we are; just messed up in the head (Chemical In-balance, Maybe?)? It's so hard to keep, find or truly want a good relationship right now with a girl for fear of being held back and not being able to experience the things I want to. I just broke up with a girlfriend this weekend (for other reasons) and apart of me is very much so releived because I have nothing to hold me back from the plans I have this year for jumping and career wise.
It, honestly, f*cking scared the sh*t out of me at times knowing I loved this girl, and I would probably have to trade a lot of what I desired in the near future in return for the relationship. I'm probably just a selfish prick with deep seeded family and relationship issues, but it is what is it.
It doesn't help that I'm from a narrowed minded family & friends with little to no support for my way of life and my dreams, and I have to do a lot of traveling out of state for sky-jumps (not BASE, though

Well thats off my chest. I'm single, and let the good times commence.


-TJ