Keep changing my mind about wanting to/not wanting to
So maybe thats a sign that I shouldn't. I just went through another cycle of wanting to/not wanting to. I had my self all psyched up to take a fbjc but then I watch videos of base jumps that didn't go exactly as planned and started to freak myself out too much. This cycle has been a never ending loop for 5 years now. I guess this post is pointless...maybe someday I'll actually do it.