Re: [Twoply] Quitting?
Yeah, well after shattering my right tib/fib and a year of recovering before I could walk without a limp or run faster than a lopsided jog; after having people I cared about die; after having people go in right in front of me; after experiencing the TRUE fear you get after knowing how badly it can be when it goes all pear-shaped; after watching my freezer door fill up with photos of deaders, the comets of our sport doomed to die too soon; after changing careers and finally discovering I wasn't so keen on dying now that I had a good living ahead of me; after finally admitting the risk and reward were not adding up the way they did in the beginning; and the final blow, Darcy...
I quit.
I did my last jump at Kjerag in July 2005, in memory of Darcy. I haven't wanted to put on a rig and jump anything since...and it took all this time to even be ok with not WANTING to jump. I had so much of "who I was" wrapped up in jumping I couldn't visualize "who I would be" if I wasn't a BASE jumper. Then after all the mental masturbation you can possibly imagine, I finally came to the place where I was at peace with not wanting to jump. It's ok to decide your life no longer is worth one fracked-up BASE jump. And I'm no less strong or free than I was when I jumped off stuff regularly. I only have decided I have many things in life worth living for, and so for now I'll live those things.
Of course, I still have my Prism and FLiK 293 in the closet....you never know when a trip to Norway will come up and I'll be wanting to run off #6 full tilt screaming my fool head off...
So I say "I'm in retirement", and look at Nick DG... back out of retirement and making a better show of it than Ozzy...
I may jump again, in fact, I probably will, but for now I'm learning to be a Healer and who knows? Maybe someday I'll be healing y'all after a baddass weekend of BASE...
And I still love it all, and most of you jokers as well (there's no accounting for taste), and I hate wondering "who's next?"
Peace,
Karen