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why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I started B.A.S.E.ing for one simple reason!!!!!! TO DIE. REALLY TO DIE!!! I DIDN'T/DON'T HAVE ALOT GOING ON IN MY LIFE AND FIGURED "WHY NOT" EITHER TO PROVE TO MYSELF I WAS/AM WRONG ABOUT WANTING THIS (DEATH) OR TO HAVE FOUND A FUN WAY TO "SNUFF IT". WELL AS IT TURNS OUT I WAS'NT/AM NOT AFRAID OF IT (DEATH) AND IT'S THE MOST FUN AND REWARDING THING I'VE EVER DONE--F.U. REAPER!!!!!!---- BETTER THAN ANY GIRL I'VE EVER BEEN WITH OR WHATEVER IN MY LIFE. BUT I DO KNOW WHAT MY ORIGINAL INTENTIONS WERE/ARE AND AS I PROGRESS I'M SURE I'LL PUSH IT AND......BSBD. I REALLY DON'T CARE AND IF I'M PARALIZED IN ANY WAY I'LL TAKE THAT AS A SIGN TOO. AND I FIND A WAY TO "SNUFF IT" FROM THERE AS WELL.

THE REASON I'M PUTTING THIS OUT THERE IS--WELL I'M WONDERING HOW MANY OTHERS ARE THERE? I KNOW I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE? I'M SURE DEEP DOWN INSIDE OF ALOT OF YOU THERE IS PAIN. THE TYPE OF PAIN THAT I HAVE. THE NEGLECT THAT I HAVE FELT AND FEEL. THE LONELINESS I FEEL. ALL OF THAT SHIT THAT JUST MAKES YOU NOT CARE!!!!! AND MAKE YOU DO THIS THING.

I KEEPING MY NAME OUT OF SIGHT SO AS NOT BE CAST OUT AND POINTED AT LIKE A FREAK FOR SAYING WHAT I KNOW ALOT YOU KEEP INSIDE AND DON'T TALK ABOUT. ALL THAT DARK SHIT
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
personaly, i think thats kinda fucked up.
but, kudos.
slitting your wrist isnt something they put in a eulogy is it?
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
  Dude, you should really seek help, get that crap checked out by a shrink/head doctor. I'm not sure there are any of those here on dropzone.com that could help. Sorry Frown
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Re: [tr027] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I APPRECIATE THE GET HELP THING IN ALL. BUT FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE WHO SERIOUSLY RISK THEIR LIVES LIKE THIS AND I KNOW AND YOU KNOW THAT ONE LITTLE ERROR CAN RUIN A PERFECTLY GOOD LEAP. I JUST CANT BEVIEVE I'M THE ONLY ONE?!? I'M JUST CURIOUS? AM I? NO WAY. ASK YOURSELVES WHAT PROMPTED YOU TO START SKYDIVING? WHAT SET YOU OFF? YOU HAD NOTHING ELSE TO LOSE. ETC. I NOT A DOWNER (PERSONALITY WISE-YOU WOULDN'T EVEN KNOW IT IF YOU MET ME) OR ANYTHING BUT I KNOW WE ALL HAVE THIS INSIDE WHY ELSE WOULD YOU RISK. AND BY THE WAY AGAIN I'M HAVING MORE FUN NOW THAN ANYTHING OR ANYONE HAS BROUGHT TO ME EVER. IN MY WHOLE LIFE BUT I KNOW EVENTUALLY--BSBD. THAT'S JUST THE WAY IT IS!!!
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Nice use of CAPITOLS! Does that mean that you are yelling?
This guy's full of shit. Pretty obvious. Kinda like some other idiots I know around here. Hey Jay, how about detaching your 3 rings so your rig looks all nicely packed and ready to go? That aughtta make a big impact! Make sure you pull high!
$50 bucks says I get banned again on my first post back!
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Re: [JackDoffdonner] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
fine!! i'm not full of shit. if you knew who i was--you would KNOW I'M not full of it. anyway the question is still out there!! nobody wants to admit it. and if you still think i'm full of it. ask yourself what was the original reason you got into it all????
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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anyway the question is still out there!! nobody wants to admit it.

I'm not always happy with where my life has taken me and I'm certainly not happy in my current situation. But that doesn't mean I'm suicidal or anything like that. All I need to do is remind myself of the good days I've experienced to get me through the less than good days. In otherwords I still have faith that more happiness awaits me before I want to check out of here. But I'm sure if I went in on a jump, not many would notice or would care and that has helped in the past towards making that leap of faith into the abyss.

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ask yourself what was the original reason you got into it all?

Why do I jump? I jump because I love playing in the skies (this applies to both BASE and skydiving) and the risk of dying on a jump is worth the reward of being able to play where very few people on this planet have ever ventured. But I also have no dependents (other than a pet) and my demise on a jump would only effect myself, my family and any friends who care about me.

I am concerned about people with your attitude though. In the whuffo public's eye, we're all a bunch of adrenaline junkies with death wishes and I would like to prove all those whuffos wrong by surviving my future skydives and future BASE jumps well into my old age. But when we have people who don't care using jumping as a way to figure out how far they can push their limits before they go too far, then these people are showing little respect for the sport and the people who care about the sport. It's one thing to die being a pioneer ... it's another thing to die because you don't care. If you don't care, there are better ways to do yourself in while not hurting the sport.
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Re: [CanuckInUSA] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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But I'm sure if I went in on a jump, not many would notice or would care...

Fuck you, you fucking asshole. Stop being such a bitch and come on over on Saturday. Grandiose BBQ!
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Re: [JaapSuter] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
You having a barb-be? Maybe I should stay alive at least that long. Wink
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I started BASE because I wanted to feel even more alive.
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Re: [piisfish] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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I started BASE because I wanted to feel even more alive.

Thats why I want to start it...
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I started BASE because I want to fly. And Wingsuit BASE is the closest thing(for me anyway). As a kid I would tuck a one end of a towel around my shirt collar and pretend to be superman.

I don't want to die, I don't even want a scratch.

Kris.
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Re: [CanuckInUSA] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
hey canuck thanks for at least kinda saying "IT" a little (even though you didn't) but i'm not going "IN' on purpose at anytime. i'm going to keep going until..... i'm never stopping.

a side note too--- have you ever noticed on THE LIST. in the "outside the sport" list..........how many suicides. and not to mention all the risky behavior. but mostly the suicides. doesn't seem like alot of 100% happy people (i know nobodys 100%).

and another side note alot of the guys i have B.A.S.E d with sure share alot of the early childhoods other character traits as i. so iguess that's where i'm coming from. i was just wondering and putting it out there and being honest. sorry.
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
That Sugar Ray "I just want to fly" song keeps playing in my head:
Iiiiii just want to die...

Wink Freak.
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Re: [JackDoffdonner] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
hey i appreciate all of the personal messages i've recieved can't answer them all have to go to work but the few i've read so far at least validate some of my thinking, mostly in the sense that this is something "we all" just don't want to publicly don't want to talk about.

because people like JACK DOFFDONNER out there will just slam you and make fun of you even though they might have some similar feelings---just so they can look cool and say whatever they have to say that's popular and do what everybody else does and says. we do live in a phony populist P C SOCIETY DONT WE. JUST SAY ALL THE RIGHT THINGS AND NOBODY WILL THINK YOUR WEIRD. (EVEN IF YOU B A S E).. HEY JACK DOFFDONNER I'M NOT ATTACKING YOU JUST WHAT YOU SAID AND HOW YOU SAID IT. i know alot of people goof on this sight=this is not of goof. and again thanks for all the PMs. i'll keep them all to myself==
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Re: [brits17] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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That Sugar Ray "I just want to fly" song keeps playing in my head:
Iiiiii just want to die...

Wink Freak.

That 2 Live Crew song "me so horny" keeps playing in my head. LaughLaughLaugh uh, horny for a jump that is...
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Re: [460] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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That 2 Live Crew song "me so horny" keeps playing in my head. Laugh Laugh Laugh uh, horny for a jump that is...

PM sent Laugh
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
because people like JACK DOFFDONNER out there will just slam you and make fun of you even though they might have some similar feelings---just so they can look cool and say whatever they have to say that's popular and do what everybody else does and says. we do live in a phony populist P C SOCIETY DONT WE. JUST SAY ALL THE RIGHT THINGS AND NOBODY WILL THINK YOUR WEIRD. (EVEN IF YOU B A S E).. HEY JACK DOFFDONNER I'M NOT ATTACKING YOU JUST WHAT YOU SAID AND HOW YOU SAID IT. i know alot of people goof on this sight=this is not of goof. and again thanks for all the PMs. i'll keep them all to myself==
HUH??!! Jack Doffdonner PC? Popular? Do what everybody else does and says???!! Not weird???
Now that's pretty funny! You're so mean for attacking me! I'm gonna go slit my wrists.
(Dude, serioulsy though, if you really are that is. Don't kill yourself!) Or I'll kill you!
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Re: [460] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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That 2 Live Crew song "me so horny" keeps playing in my head. Laugh Laugh Laugh uh, horny for a jump that is...

how youuuuuu doin?
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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I started B.A.S.E.ing for one simple reason!!!!!! TO DIE. REALLY TO DIE!!!

There is a lot of that going around, whether we talk about it here or not. I know that was pretty much my original motivation.

In all honesty, my experience has been that people either get past that point, or they really do go in. It's interesting the number of folks I know who started BASE because they had nothing left to live for, and then found things to live for because they were BASE jumping.

One of my friends once described it something like this "psychotherapy is to scalpel as BASE jumping is to hatchet."
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Re: [TomAiello] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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One of my friends once described it something like this "psychotherapy is to scalpel as BASE jumping is to hatchet."

Wouldn’t that make more sense phrased this way: BASE jumping is to psychotherapy as hatchet is to scalpel?
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Re: [TomAiello] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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I started B.A.S.E.ing for one simple reason!!!!!! TO DIE. REALLY TO DIE!!!

There is a lot of that going around, whether we talk about it here or not. I know that was pretty much my original motivation.
somewhere I came across the idea, "if you were perfectly content and happy, why would you do ANYTHING?"

heck, marketers make you feel dissatisified with your life. then they offer whatever they are selling as the ideal solution!

so, I suspect many participants started to escape something...
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Re: [Amanduh] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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That 2 Live Crew song "me so horny" keeps playing in my head. Laugh Laugh Laugh uh, horny for a jump that is...

how youuuuuu doin?

i though your ****** was hurt? thats what you said on video...
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Re: [leroydb] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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That 2 Live Crew song "me so horny" keeps playing in my head. Laugh Laugh Laugh uh, horny for a jump that is...

how youuuuuu doin?

i though your ****** was hurt? thats what you said on video...

? I'm perfectly fine ? I'm going to add that music to my car horn repertoire. Nothing like going through an intersection with the horn blaring "me so horny. me love you long time!"
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Re: [leroydb] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I started Base jumping because its fun really really extra super FUN stuff...
, also skydiving is fun, a lot of fun !!
, all people around the sport are funny...travelling for the sport is fun too.


And no, I really dont want to DIE or have any kind of scratch...

Have fun guys and be careful with those 3 rings...

Tongue
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
a side note too--- have you ever noticed on THE LIST. in the "outside the sport" list..........how many suicides. and not to mention all the risky behavior. but mostly the suicides. doesn't seem like alot of 100% happy people (i know nobodys 100%).
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Yeah but dude it doesn't mean these people got into BASE because of their depression and wanting to die. I'm pretty new to BASE, but I can tell you that I've climbed with countless people over the years that were down about their life and in turn they climbed high-risk hard alpine routes because it made them feel like they were doing something that was meaningful to them.

I kinda understand what you're saying about your own situation with having the "nothing to lose so why not?" attitude, or feeling unsatisfied with your life. (I've had feelings like this myself, but it wasn't what pushed me to try BASE). But the truth is a shrink would probably tell you that your reason for getting into BASE is not because you wanted to die, but rather to find something that gives you a greater sense of meaning. You're probably someone that goes through extreme high's and low's depending on what day of the week it is. And it just so happens that the sports involving a great deal of risk give you a high that makes you forget about all the other bad shit in your life that you don't like. And that's why BASE is obviously good for you; it makes you a happier person.


People that want to die put a bullet through their head. They don't fuck around by wasting their time doing something that might kill them someday.

I don't think wanting to die led you to BASE dude; people who want to die feel that there is nothing worth living for, not even BASE.

Also, in your original post you said something about how BASE has given you more than any woman could or something like that. I think this demonstrates even further what I am getting at. It sounds like you probably have had a relationship(s) in the past that. . . .when it was healthy and things were going along good, you were on a high and life was good. But when the relationship ended and things were shitty and you ended up hurt, you naturally want a quick emotional fix for those moments when you feel like life sucks. That's where BASE comes in. All you have to do is jump and for a brief period before, during, and after the jump, you're on an emotional high, regardless of what that bitch from you're past did to you!

I hate to go all shrink on ya, but that's .02 for what its worth.

Me. . . .I got into BASE because I like the feeling I get from being scared of something, and then being able to overcome it. I also like unique the sub culture associated with BASE. I've got a fragile ego. Most non jumpers can't deal with the thought of jumping off shit with a parachute. And therfore my ego gets a charge from that because I feel like I know something that most others will never know. And I think thats representative of the greater BASE culture in general. That's why I climb. That's why I skydive. And that's ultimately what led me to try BASE.

. . . .this is an interesting thread. I know it's been discussed here before by others, but every once in awhile it's good to hear what everyone has to say about it.

Cheers,

JP
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Re: [TomAiello] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Hey Tom,
wasn't your original "I wanna die" motivation somehow related to a breakup?

It's funny to me how some people get all emotional and say they wanna base jump cuz they have nothing left to live for.

None of you have any clue about having nothing left to live for cuz you're all still alive, and no one close to you has ever truly believed that either otherwise you'd have personal experiences with suicide and you wouldn't think it would be so cool to say stuff like, "back then I felt like I had nothing to live for"

Half of you Base jump so you can say you base jump, that's the fact that you all find hard to admit.
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Re: [jimmyh] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Dunno Jimmy.
I thought JP had it nailed with what he wrote.
I started skydiving by chance at a real low time in my life where I needed something like that.
I started BASE jumping at a very strange time in my life. There had been three deaths of close family, I had just gotten married and there was a daughter on the way.
BASE gives me the same as surfing. Like JP said, I'm scared and i get a boost from overcoming that fear. It's also my escape when life gets too much.
I saw an interview before I even contemplated the idea of pursuing skydiving as a sport. Nick or some of the older guys can correct me but it was an interview of Frank Gambalie where he said something like: "BASE is not about defying death but rather living life to the fullest". These are probably not his exact words but in essence that's the message i kept from the documantary and the idea I had of BASE from there on.
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Re: [pocbase] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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Nick or some of the older guys can correct me but it was an interview of Frank Gambalie where he said something like: "BASE is not about defying death but rather living life to the fullest". These are probably not his exact words but in essence that's the message i kept from the documantary and the idea I had of BASE from there on.

exatly, thats what it is...thank you. you said it...
piece, and please have fun for a while if you can....
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Re: [pocbase] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Yeah,
I think that's my point. You might actually hate your life so much that you feel like you have nothing left to live for, but if you start BASE jumping at that point, then it neccessarily proves that at the very least you believe that the act of BASE jumping might change some aspect of your life therebye making it worth living again and that very idea is worth living for which is something even in the midst of the darkest depression.

However, if you actually say that you started BASE jumping because you wanted to die because you had nothing left to live for, so what the hey? Why not die doing something cool?

Well then that proves that you don't know what you are talking about when it comes to your own life and motivations and therefore you should be the last person on the planet making judgements about other people and their motivations especially in the capacity as moderator of this forum.

Here's why I BASE jump, using lyrics from Faith no More:

Q. "Why do you do what you do?"

A. "I do what I wanna do."

Q. "Who said you could do what you do?"

A. "I told you who, told me to. I do what I wanna do"
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Re: [jimmyh] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
pretty much... i just BASE jump because i'm a total loser otherwise and when people find out i that i jump they are suddenly intrigued and think i'm neat. then i trick them into buying me drinks.

oh, and chicks dig it too.Tongue
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Re: [TomAiello] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
BAAAA HAAAAA HA HA HAAA HA HAAAA.

that is realy pathetic. and you are serious too.

"oh booo hooo, I am a white educated american in the US with plenty of free time on my hands and even money... boo hoo, I have nothing to live for."

BAAA HAAA HA
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Re: [blitzkrieg] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Hey blitzkrieg,
your post isn't original cuz I said that first:

I said,

"Half of you Base jump so you can say you base jump."

What I wrote is what you meant.
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Re: [jimmyh] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Anyway,
Tom will never experience another moment in his life where he feels worthless.

This forum has given his life a meaning that I'm sure he never expected as a young closet homosexual.
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Re: [jimmyh] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
This forum has given his life a meaning that I'm sure he never expected as a young closet homosexual.


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He he. (Sorry Tom)

Jesus!
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
WOW.........that's some heavy stuff.......I thought deep about it for.........5 seconds........it's really sad if that's why anyone started jumping......Myself I grew up during the Foreign Substance induced 70's and 80's and lost my fear of Death back then....didn't even think about Skydiving or Base until the late 90's....and then I got involved not because I didn't have anything to live for or wanted a way out....i did cause I was BORED......after my first Jump...I said Yeah that's what we were looking for (we is me and myself) I generally don't tell people I meet that I even Jump......cause it's for me......that's why I do it........just my coupl of cents.
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Re: [Bigwallmaster] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
914 you seem to have a very naive view of what depression is. You seem to think it's purely causal. Something must have happened to cause it - Relationship problems, money problems, hardship and adversity. It may come as surprise to you to learn that for many, depression and suicidal thoughts are not linked to anything tangible in their lives, but are purely the products of a chemical imbalance - an under availabilty (so to speak) of the neurotransmitter serotonin. That is where drugs like prozac come in. They inhibit the reuptake of serotonin, making it more available. Serotonin is associated with the brains ability to create a happy, contented state.

It is now widely believed in scientific circles that many people who produce low levels of serotonin (depressives) - compensate for it by participating in high risk taking in order to stimulate the brains production of the euphoria inducing adrenaline.

Put simply, although many people are unaware of it, they may BASE jump in order to activate their adrenaline response in order to compensate for their lower serotonin levels.

This isn't simply - BASE jumping makes them feel happy or euphoric. It is more BASE jumping makes them feel normal again. Human again. Alive again. It lifts the blackness.


I am no scientist but this rings so true.

I started BASE jumping at a point in my life when I was in my (what i call now) black state. The walls were closing in on me for no reason and as unpalatable as suicide felt, it seemed at the time to be a perfectly good solution to the torment i was in. I'll go further in fact. It was THE perfect solution, the only real solution.

Only a person who has been in this mental state will appreciate what I have just written. If you think you can rationalise your way out of it then you really have no understanding of that state.

Anyway, I started BASE jumping - not because i wanted to use it to die, but because it was something i wanted to do anyway and at that point i felt if I survived my jumps then that would be great, but if i didn't then that too would be great cos it would offer me release from the blackness. What happened however was it gave me my life back. It gave me myself back (and i know that sounds corny, but i also know that anyone who has been there will understand it). It gave me absolute focus and clarity, and that wasn't just spiritual and emotional, it was chemical.

I still take Fluoxetine (prozac) daily. Prozac has helped me redress the chemical balance enormously, and i use it because I need to keep on top of my imbalance and BASE jumping is just too sporadic and intermittent to rely on, but I know that BASE jumping is an amazing supplement.

Being white, middle class, american, married, wealthy etc does not rule you out from genuine chemical depression. In fact it could be argued that those factors actually contribute to the inactivity of the adrenaline response and thus make any imbalance in serotonin more noticeable, but then i would be guessing.

I've written this because it's important to me that people at least try to understand the nature of depression. It isn't something you can just shake yourself out of. It isn't just feeling sorry for yourself. It isn't feeling a bit glum. You can not rationalise your way out of a genuine depression no more than a diabetic can rationalise themselves out of a attack or a hayfever sufferer can give themselves a good talking to about their streaming red eyes.

I hope that is food for thought for some of you who think it's just someone trying to be a bit different and a bit controversial.

dr. pepper - so misunderstood.
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Re: [CanuckInUSA] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I would have to agree with you here chuck.... Dying is not even a reason i would consider in my choice to skydive or base. Being in a poor or unstable mindset is not a way i would want to be doing something i enjoy....And to be that bent over money, relationship's or stupid thing's that would want you to end all..well... pick your ass up and move on.... there will be always money and relationships for the taking... quit living in the past and live in the now..

This base forum is getting to be like a white wall room forum....

again...it is what it is....internet babble....Tongue
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Huh,
That's some deep shit. I think i started the day I was on top of a large rock in sedona. i was smoking a joint and talking to this crow. about life and my place in it. He never answered , but instead looked over his shoulder at me and hopped off the cliff w/out spreading his wings(that i could see). a few to 5 seconds later he appeared, soaring, wings spread, past the talus.
I climbed down cathedral rock, drove straight to the new tandem operation that was starting at the cottonwood airport and asked them how I could learn to fly. They weren't opening for another month and by then I was going to be back in NY. So they directed me to the ranch, Where not one of those (seemingly) selfish motherhuckers would teach me to base. So I started packing student rigs and harassing everyone w/ a basic research shirt I could find. Finaly found a mentor, got a hundred base and now I am one of those (seemingly) selfish motherhuckers, that doesn't wan't to help that crazy kid f*ck himself up on a real jump.
Why did I get into it, Cause life told me to. And I owe most of it to BLINCmagazine.com (Sorry tom, DZ didn't have a base board then)
When I am really f*cked up and depressed as i am now (5yr girlfrnd dumped me last week) I go back to skydiving, 'cause I don't have the head to handle BASE.
This is a serious commitment that can dramaticly improve a select few's lives. It's not an easy way out. Chances are you will be mangled and owe huge hospital bills b4 you ever get to die. Don't do it to cure depression, just to prevent it.
BASE is not about the possability of quick death but instead about the guarantee of a full life.
I trully hope you find your way to the surface of your depression, don't be afraid to ask for help.
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Ok, so for a lot of reasons, i am not happy with my life right now.
Many a time, i think i would have been better off not wakeing up from the coma. but i know personaly many para/quadrapalegics who still love their lives. i spent 3 months in the hospital with a bunch of people who will never walk again. the look they gave me, because i was in a wheelchair for 4 months, was one that i will never forget.
but, if i EVER get the thought in my head that i will KILL myself, i will either be way to fucked to actualy do it, or i will find some WAY cooler that BASE jumping, because, really, this sport isnt THAT cool. and really, it needs no more martyrs. so, capitals dude, go step in front of a bus.
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Re: [dr.pepper] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
i just got in from work and was surprised and not surprised at some of the talk on here---- and thanks for spending the time you did. tom a. i was a little surprised (in a good way-- ireally wasn't sure how you would take this) that you would admit such a thing! i really apprieciate it. bigwallmaster i really digested alot of what you said and alot of it struck home alot. and the same with dr.pepper the two of you mirrored --echoed--and validated exactly what I'M FEELING. thank you. and some of you i'm always going to choose my words with in the future like at exit points or landing areas or the hike back or the climb down! i'm not the type of person you'd look at and say "oh that guys messed up in the head!" I'M QUITE THE OPPOSITE. i'm around.

REMEMBER I WAS JUST BEING HONEST ABOUT THE STUFF IN MY HEAD THE STUFF WE USUALY DON'T LET OUT we all keep secrets for the fear of what people will think. I'M STILL THE SAME GUY THAT MIGHT CARRY YOU OUT WHEN YOU HAD THE 180 OR THE BROKEN TOGGLE COME FLARE TIME.
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
Well now we understand. At first I didn't realize the extent to which you're afraid people will learn the truth about you. But I guess your fellow jumpers might think twice (or 5 times) about having you PCA them or assist in any way while you're seeking death and they're trying to avoid it. Makes sense.
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I can honestly say that dieing never entered my mind for some reason to BASE jump, really if I thought that "this is or could be the end", then I'm sure as hell not jumping! I "KNOW" my shit will work, that's what I'm thinking. Once or twice thou I thought that "man, if this don't work , this is gonna hurt" , but dieing, no no!
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Re: [tr027] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
and you know what??? thats it right there. i would also like to say i would never --ever hurt anybody doing this. i'm always looking out to help not hurt. and with myself i must admit i'm very careful (overly) with my pack job and everthing that goes along with this--because i want everything to go right. that's pretty ironic but true and contradictory and all that just almost doesn't make much sense but that's who and what i am. GOODNITE!!
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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ASK YOURSELVES WHAT PROMPTED YOU TO START SKYDIVING? WHAT SET YOU OFF?

WHile nothing 'set me off', I got into to sport shortly after meeting a longtime jumper who posts here. I would have gotten into it much earlier but just never thought about seeking out a drop zone and always figured it was outta my budget (heh..still is). I was one of the kids that had the dreams about human flight, was fascinated by videos of skydivers, etc.

I'm currently in student status at SDH though I plan to get into BASE once I feel I am ready. My motives for getting into skydiving and any of the disciplines tho, have nothing to do with wanting to die. I both understand and accept the inherent risks, just as I did when I was a U.S. Marine serving overseas; though my motive was based on the achievement factor and living life to the fullest rather than seeking a death wish.

In comparison, those of us who live in major cities (I'm in Houston) risk our lives every day just by getting on the freeway, and I figure I'll probably burn in faster from an idiot driver rather than chute malfunction or pilot error.

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AND BY THE WAY AGAIN I'M HAVING MORE FUN NOW THAN ANYTHING OR ANYONE HAS BROUGHT TO ME EVER. IN MY WHOLE LIFE BUT I KNOW EVENTUALLY--BSBD

Yeah, there are risks. With the greatest risk comes the greatest reward. I'm pretty certain that the people who climb mt everest aren't looking to die, they just want to get to the top.

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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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ASK YOURSELVES WHAT PROMPTED YOU TO START SKYDIVING? WHAT SET YOU OFF? YOU HAD NOTHING ELSE TO LOSE. ETC.

You're either fishing, or you're in a predicament that you need to resolve away from the worlds objects.

Either way, you are making a lot of false assumptions, generalisations, etc about the jumping community.

Most of us are here for the exact opposite reason that you mention.

WE ARE HERE TO LIVE!!!!!!!!!

AND MOST OF US WANT TO DO IT IN A REASONABLY CONTROLLED MANNER. MANY OF US ARE HERE TO MANAGE RISK AND ACHIEVE/SATISFY OTHER OBJECTIVES THAN THE ONES YOU MENTION. A death wish it is not.

Are there suicidal jumpers? Of course. There is one prominant person who had similar thoughts to the ones you are promoting.

But in general, it is not a contrived suicide pact.

Good Luck with it all.

p.s. there are many wonderful things to do, see, feel, touch, smell, experience, etc in this world. Search a little harder both within yourself and external to yourself and you will find amazing things in this life. Don't waste it.
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I have ZERO thoughts of suicide. If I did come to a point (god help me) where suicide was the "only" way out I wouldn't do it jumping because I have too much respect of the sport and my friends in the sport. I could see why one would want to go out that way, but I wouldn't. Overall I see suicide as SELFISH. An easy way out. Your loved ones (and there out there) feel the pain and burden of your death more than you. If your to a point where this option is your only choice, reach out to whoever, me even. I'm open ears, privately of course. I BASE to live, not to Die.

Nic
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Re: [xxxxx] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
During a base jumping power weekend back in the days, I was waking up all sweaty and trembling ... I hear a friend in the dark

"it is just demons little brother just demons, get your stuff we are going again"

He was right, it's just demons ... but it has nothing to do with jumping

I miss him

PerFlare
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Re: [dr.pepper] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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Something must have happened to cause it - Relationship problems, money problems, hardship and adversity. It may come as surprise to you to learn that for many, depression and suicidal thoughts are not linked to anything tangible in their lives, but are purely the products of a chemical imbalance

Don't confuse clinical depression with the "social" depression sold by the pharmaceutical companies.

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- an under availabilty (so to speak) of the neurotransmitter serotonin. That is where drugs like prozac come in. They inhibit the reuptake of serotonin, making it more available. Serotonin is associated with the brains ability to create a happy, contented state.

Serotonin does not create happy!

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It is now widely believed in scientific circles that many people who produce low levels of serotonin (depressives) - compensate for it by participating in high risk taking in order to stimulate the brains production of the euphoria inducing adrenaline.

Folk’s science for the most part. You cannot make a direct link from molecules to behavior. Things are a little more complicated than that. Also, the few empirical data are controversial.

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Put simply, although many people are unaware of it, they may BASE jump in order to activate their adrenaline response in order to compensate for their lower serotonin levels.

Don't confuse science with introspection.

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This isn't simply - BASE jumping makes them feel happy or euphoric. It is more BASE jumping makes them feel normal again. Human again. Alive again. It lifts the blackness.

Again, don't confuse science with introspection.

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I am no scientist but this rings so true.


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I still take Fluoxetine (prozac) daily. Prozac has helped me redress the chemical balance enormously, and i use it because I need to keep on top of my imbalance and BASE jumping is just too sporadic and intermittent to rely on, but I know that BASE jumping is an amazing supplement.

Like many psychoactive drugs, antidepressant users will develop tolerance and withdrawal symptoms when the use ceases. For the most part antidepressants do more bad than good especially for the “social” depressed people. On the contrary for few clinically depressed patients they could be life savers. Those drugs are prescribed way too casually. It’s a ludicrous business much worse IMO than illegal drug trafficking and dealing.

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Being white, middle class, american, married, wealthy etc does not rule you out from genuine chemical depression. In fact it could be argued that those factors actually contribute to the inactivity of the adrenaline response and thus make any imbalance in serotonin more noticeable, but then i would be guessing.

Yes you are guessing.

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I've written this because it's important to me that people at least try to understand the nature of depression. It isn't something you can just shake yourself out of. It isn't just feeling sorry for yourself. It isn't feeling a bit glum. You can not rationalise your way out of a genuine depression no more than a diabetic can rationalise themselves out of a attack or a hayfever sufferer can give themselves a good talking to about their streaming red eyes.

Very true for clinical depression.

Thanks for sharing that.
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I haven't actually base jumped yet, but it's the reason I started skydiving.

I want to base jump because i'm a rush junkie, and this kind of sport was a good substitute for drugsWink

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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I like to BASE jump because I get into ridiculous situations with some good mates, then afterwards we get to have a beer and laugh about it. It is not a lifestyle, it is not who I am - I value my BASE friendships way more than any BASE jump.
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Re: [jay81] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I want to get into BASE jumping so I can challenge myself, and truly myself only. I want to know that I can and do get into and out of situations others dont even dream about, and that in turn will make me feel very very alive!

I have a daughter, and a partner yet I dont see this as an issue (like some people think it should be) as I dont plan on hurting myself...hence I like the saying about how the rock can wait, it will always be there. In other words I am contradicting myself by saying I want to wait until she is old enough to remember me :)
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Re: [skreamer] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
like barmy army and papa smurf...hehehehe
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Re: [dropzonebum_au] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
No offense, but did you proof read this before you posted?

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I don’t plan on hurting myself.

Hmmmm...Yea... If you enter the sport of BASE thinking you won’t get hurt...Then you need to stick to skydiving. Everyone is BASE gets hurt, and if you haven't...Its only a matter of time.

Coco
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Re: [dmcoco84] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
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No offense, but did you proof read this before you posted?

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I don’t plan on hurting myself.


Hmmmm...Yea... If you enter the sport of BASE thinking you won’t get hurt...Then you need to stick to skydiving. Everyone is BASE gets hurt, and if you haven't...Its only a matter of time.

Coco

There is an assumption that such thinking implies not acknowledging the real dangers of BASE. This may not necessarily be true.

If we get into the sport thinking we are going to get hurt anyway doesn't that permeate(sp and usage?) taking more risks because we are going to get hurt anyway?

There are people that have not gotten hurt despite doing a lot of BASE jumps. To aspire to be one of them is not such a bad thing.

Kris.
Edited to insert the 'are'
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Re: [KrisFlyZ] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I disagree, I think its better to go into a sport knowing you can and most likely will eventually get hurt (whether that be major injury or stubbing your pinky toe Blush) than going into a sport such as BASE with unrealistic ideas of invincibility. I think knowing you can get hurt, planning ahead for it through training to avoid injury and understand those risks makes you are less likely to do something stupid or take additional risks outside of your abilities than if you are blind to the truth. Blink to the truth that no one is invincible.

Coco

P.S. Very true...I'm yet to be injured. Although does almost breaking your ankle tripping in a hole after a BASE jump count as a base injury? Laugh
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Re: why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
I started because of the psyhedelic reasons. I needed something that would really push my mind into unknow, something harder than anything i'd tried by that time. I considered BASE the most similar to suicide -- way to try it with no real dying.
Sure i enjoy the different sides of BASE now, but that's why i did it first time.
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Re: [dmcoco84] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
or possibly...

more training just breeds the thinking... "i 'trained' for this, so i'm 'ready' and will be fine dealing with the unknown."Shocked

p.s. i AM invincible.Tongue
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Re: [dr.pepper] why I STARTED B.A.S.E why DID YOU?
My 2 cents:TRUER WORDS WERE NEVER SPOKEN.


Jay,been there know where your coming from ANDwhere your at.(pm me if you need to talk